Where is God when Evil Storms into My Life?

“So good!” —Rich Wilkerson, Senior Pastor, Trinity Church, Miami, FL

by Steven Gledhill for FREEdom from MEdom Project

How could a loving God, with the final say concerning all that exists and happens, allow bad things to go on in the world, to the point that evil often dominates the world stage? Why are there natural disasters? Why is there disease and famine? Why are there starving children? Why is there violence? Why do the innocent suffer? Why so much hardship? Why no accountability for evil dictators? Why so much death? How could the Almighty be so careless and irresponsible about the goings on in the world against the people living in it that God is said to love? What is God doing about all of the insanity?

I’ve work with folks who have been neglected, abused, and abandoned as children; those who have seen the death of loved ones to drugs, disease and street violence. Some refuse to acknowledge a God who would permit the persistence of evil they have seen first hand. Others believe that there must be a God, but that He must not care if He doesn’t rid the world of its evil before so many are harmed by it. Still others are so angry with God and so full of resentment that they cannot help but to blame God.

Jesus was sleeping at the back of the boat with his head on a cushion. The disciples woke him up, shouting, “Teacher, don’t you care that we’re going to drown?”  Mark 4:38 (NLT)

It’s overwhelming! It can feel like you’re drowning. Have you wondered at times if God is missing in action? I know I have. I have experienced times of desperate peril when I wondered, “God, how can you allow this to even happen? It’s so much more than I can bear.”

“The human spirit will not even begin to try to surrender self-will as long as all seems to be well with it. Now error and sin both have this property, that the deeper they are the less their victim suspects their existence; they are masked evil. Pain is unmasked, unmistakable evil; every man knows that something is wrong when he is being hurt.” —C.S. Lewis, The Problem of Pain

Most of those I share this message with (the message in this article) are receptive to it because it is reasonable and makes the most sense to them wherever they’re at on the “resisting/rejecting God” spectrum. Even the unbeliever has to pause and consider the spiritual possibilities presented here as he ponders them in his deepest sensibilities. I believe this to be a word from God for the believer and the unbeliever alike that tends to struggle with the matter of a loving God allowing evil and suffering in the world. So, open your mind and your heart as you read through this article.

I could offer you the standard scriptures pointing to free will and sin and how not measuring up to God’s standards of holiness takes us on the path to imminent death. “For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God; and the wages of sin is death…” It is rather easy to go there (and eventually I do) to somehow describe the presence of evil in the world. But here we will go deeper into it on a level that doesn’t sound overtly religious, but rather disseminates within its message the fuller scope of reasonable truth.

Some reject the very existence of God since the existence of a supreme being would be intolerant of evil and would not even allow it into existence. Whether or not that is a rational premise, it for me is harder to believe in an evolutionary process without God since it all had to begin somewhere. Something had to always exist, whether it be the eternal existence of God or that of some single-cell micro-organism. Which makes the most sense, even scientifically?

So let’s assume that in the beginning was God. The eternal existence of God is easier for me to wrap my mind around than the eternal existence of something smaller than a dust particle to set everything that ever was, and is, into motion. Once I can accept the premise of God as creator I can move forward with the sensible assumptions and presumptions laid out here.

When it comes to living creatures, I think it is fair to suggest that one of two conclusions can be drawn. Either living creatures with cognitive function are made with free will, or what would essentially be puppets at the involuntary service and pleasure of their creator.

Should I build something, I have done so to serve a necessary function, ultimately for my satisfaction. If I were to draw or paint something, I have done so for my gratification. I do my best to secure control of the thing I have made. I believe the same to be true about what God has created; that there are things that God made for His pleasure, His amusement, things that do not have free will that serve some general or specific function in the universe. Even living things such as plants do not appear to possess an independent soul or free will.

There are living creatures, including animals, with enough cognitive function that they are free to make choices, whether drawing on instinct or from intellectual and emotional sensibilities. Even animals utilize cognitive function to nurture their young and get creative about what they need to do to survive and thrive in their ecological systems. And before any human being fell to poor foolish choices, we read in the Bible that angels also made choices to reject the sovereign will of their creator and go their own way. But for the sake of our discussion here, I will keep the emphasis on human beings and our issue with free will, free to choose and act in alignment with the will and plan of God, or choose and act contrary to it.

The universe is so vast, how can God even see me? Why would God pay attention to me in the midst of this storm in my life?

O Lord, what are human beings that you should notice them,
mere mortals that you should think about them? 
Psalm 144:3 (NLT)

I also presume that God is good and loves what He made. I presume that only God is God, and I am not. I can be good. But I can be good for my sake, at your expense. If God is holy (set apart), sovereign (supreme power, authority) and good, and sets out to do what pleases Him, then what pleases God is good and best. When I do what please me, what I do is suspect and vulnerable to harm against myself, and against you. If God is God, God is never wanting or in need of anything. Therefore, it makes sense that what pleases God most, is seeing pleasure come to what He has made; like a loving father who indulges in the achievements and happiness of his children.

Me being me, I am always wanting and in need. God is inherently satisfied, I am perpetually dissatisfied. Therefore, as I seek pleasure in what satisfies me, it potentially puts you at risk of harm; even if the harm that comes to you is an indirect, unintended consequence of my pursuit of comfort by way of what I feel I need to be content. That is the reality of free will, even among the most civilized of people.

If human beings were born into this world without free will, there would be no wrong-doing or evil in the world, since God would have chosen to be in direct and complete control over everything that moves and breathes. But since it is obvious that we do have free will, we can see the outcomes borne out of errant choices and behavior contrary to God’s plan and purpose.

Let’s go a little deeper with this. Every errant, poor, wrong, bad, foolish decision I have ever made and acted upon has rendered some kind of outcome in the world from something barely harmful to something catastrophic. The evil in the world is the collective unrighteousness of everything that has ever lived throughout history.

To attempt to illustrate this point, how about we use the oceans of the earth to represent evil and anything that is wrong, unpleasant and harmful? Let’s call it the sea of evil. Since the beginning of humankind, each and every one of us who have ever lived have been pouring water into this sea. Every selfish, self-centered action with even the remotest opportunity to cause harm is water in the bucket that is at some point was dumped into the sea of evil.

I have no idea how many buckets of water you have poured into the oceans over the course of your life. Perhaps, I have poured a good-sized pond’s worth of water into the sea of evil over the course of my life as I prepare to pass through my middle 50s.

Mother Teresa was not perfect and likely dumped a few buckets of her imperfections into the sea, contributing to the collective evil in the world. Popes throughout history have not been perfect (only Jesus was perfect) and have poured some evil into the sea. So did the heralded evangelist and spiritual advisor to U.S. presidents, Billy Graham. Insane dictators, and world leaders who have oppressed, and even slaughtered civilians have contributed a great deal into the sea of evil. Hitler, Stalin and Mao, far from perfect, contributed lots and lots of evil into the sea. Wow, they might have poured as much as the Arctic Sea all by themselves.

All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. Romans 3:23-24 (NIV)

Every drop poured into the sea of evil counts. What happens to water when it is changed by conditions? Water evaporates. Evaporated water doesn’t just disappear. It goes somewhere. It get caught up in the air and forms into clouds. These clouds get caught up in the jet streams. Weather patterns are created. Storm clouds fill up with all of this water. The jet streams take these storm clouds over the land where you and I live. There is too much water that the clouds can no longer contain it. The clouds come over, and at some point begin to rain.

Who is responsible for the rain? Is it Hitler? Is it the vast amounts of water that Hitler dumped into the sea of evil that is now raining on me… raining on you? Is it you? You dumped some water into the sea. Maybe it’s the water you poured in that is raining on me. Is it me? Am I responsible for the evil that has been poured into your lap?

When it rains it pours, right?

Evil is impartial. Evil does not discriminate. It makes it’s way from wherever it came from to wherever it’s going, and along the way, it is going to dump on whatever, and whoever, is in its path. Evil can’t help itself. It is, by nature, harmful and destructive.

That’s how it’s been. That’s how it will continue to be until the time of perfection overcomes evil (Christ’s return and judgment against evil). Until then, we need protection from evil.

There is an obvious record of catastrophic damage and destruction from hurricanes, tornadoes, typhoons, tsunamis, and all other forms of weather-induced tragedies throughout human history. We have seen what weather can do to devastate the lives of this planet’s inhabitants. But, what if evil has the same kind of effect against our lives from whatever portion we have altogether contributed to it since the beginning?

When evil pays us back for what we have poured into it, it does not care how much or how little we contributed. Sometimes it is some inconvenience in your day-to-day circumstances; like an on-and-off drizzle that can get on your nerves. Sometimes, it is an all-day rain shower that washes out your plans. Sometimes, it rains so long and so hard that it causes your basement to flood, disrupting your life.

It doesn’t stop there for some. Evil is the tornado that knocked your house down. It’s the hurricane that wiped out New Orleans and Haiti. Evil is the typhoon that wiped out entire cities in the Philippines, or it’s the Tsunamis that in recent memory swallowed up Indonesia and Japan.

Where did the harm originate? Who’s poor behavioral choices dumped into the sea of evil has been the cause of the certain destruction in my life, and the disappointment, and perhaps devastation, in yours?

EVIL DOESN’T CARE!

Evil is evil!

Everything from a mosquito bite to a catching a cold, to terminal diseases, to social injustices and horrific abuses, to persecution and poverty, to terrorism and wars woven into the fabric of human existence because of collective evil from the beginning. It is something so vast, so immense, and insurmountable that it is beyond imagination how to prevail against it.

I suppose this is all merely an allegorical way of saying that when it comes to being victimized by evil, often times we are in the wrong place or situation at the wrong time. Other times, it is reaping what one has sowed directly affecting consequences. Either way, we’ve all contributed to the collective evil that reaps consequences. We are reaping what we have sowed, to one extent or another, as the consequence for all collective sin, as a result of choices and behavior contrary to divine standard.

It is Cruel

I talked to a man who, while he believes in God, struggles mightily with something that struck his family growing up. His brother was diagnosed with cancer at a very young age. Growing up in the church, he and so many of his family prayed and prayed and prayed for the healing of his brother. For several years, his brother suffered in his illness before cancer took his life. How could God let this happen? If God was going to take him anyway, why did his brother have to suffer for so long? It is cruel what God allowed, or permitted, to happen in the body of this innocent little boy. And afterwards, an entire family gives up on God and finds comfort in the arms of alcohol and drugs.

Martha said to Jesus, “Lord, if only you had been here, my brother would not have died.” But some said, “This man healed a blind man. Couldn’t he have kept Lazarus from dying?” John 11:21, 37

You can clearly see why this man, a drug addict who still doesn’t see having a life without drugs (despite having children of his own) is angry and holds deep resentment toward God. After all, it cruel what this boy and his family experienced. They suffered incredible agony. The evil that stormed into their lives was relentless.

As the man shared his story with me I was deeply troubled by it, desperately searching within the resources of my mind for a response. Thank God for the resource of divine knowledge and wisdom as the Spirit of God responded to this man using my voice. From that response comes this chapter that I am now sharing with you.

You see, evil has no conscience; no respect, no pity for anyone, picking its numbers indiscriminately. Evil doesn’t care whose number is up! Evil doesn’t care if you are a decent person or not. Evil doesn’t care if you are five years old or fifty-five. Bottom line is that you and I have made choices and actions contrary to the will of God. Whether I have strayed a little from the plan or strayed a great distance from the will of God, I have strayed and contributed into the jackpot that contains all of the evil ever invoked upon the universe.

But why the young children who are innocent? While the young children and babies may be innocent in the eyes of man, and in the eyes of God for that matter, they live in the same world that is altogether evil because of free will gone bad and subject to evil’s wrath.

EVIL IS THE ENEMY.

This is the reality of God giving you and I free will. Does it mean we were created flawed; created to sin? I don’t believe that to be the case, but God knew that because we were created to make up our own mind and act on it accordingly, and because we are not God, we will inevitably do wrong; what the Bible calls sin.

This resulted in a problem for God; a problem that God anticipated from the beginning. Scripture tells us in Revelation 13:8 that God knew from the beginning that there would have to be a sacrifice to atone for the problem of sin. Jesus would leave the refuge of His divine standing to come to us as a human person and live with us, living like us. He would understand our human weakness on every front and as an innocent man experience the full weight of evil on a level that we will never fully comprehend.

Jesus called out with a loud voice, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” which means “My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?” Matthew 27:46 (NLT)

“He lived in the shadow of the cross from the moment He entered our world.” —Greg Laurie, Harvest Christian Fellowship

So then, since we have a great High Priest who has entered heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to what we believe. This High Priest of ours understands our weaknesses, for he faced all of the same testings we do, yet he did not sin. So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most. Hebrews 4:14-16 (NLT)

Altogether contributing to and responsible for the collective evil in the world, we have a tendency as a people to hold God responsible for the consequence of the evil in the world and the pain and suffering produced by it. The question is so often asked is, “How can a God who is supposed to be loving, gracious, fair, and divinely sovereign, allow evil to cause harm to people, particularly innocent people, and especially helpless children? Had God initiated the eradication of evil in the world, people wouldn’t get hurt, and He would not have had to sacrifice His son to save His creation.”

Is that right?

There was a time when God actually did eradicate evil, for the most part. Noah and his family were the only people that lived to talk about it; even though they would also start the process of collective evil all over again. God did, though, eradicate the eternal relevance of evil when He executed the plan to sacrifice His Son to pay the debt for your unrighteousness and mine once and for all; declaring that we who believe are altogether innocent of the contribution we have made to the collective evil in the world. It is this truth that has indeed set us free, finally, from such an arduous burden. Jesus is God’s gift to mankind for all time both backward and forward. Jesus is God’s response to evil.

Jesus gave his life for our sins, just as God our Father planned, in order to rescue us from this evil world in which we live… I am shocked that you are turning away so soon from God, who called you to himself through the loving mercy of Christ. You are following a different way that pretends to be the Good News but is not the Good News at all. You are being fooled by those who deliberately twist the truth concerning Christ. Galatians 1:4, 6-7 (NLT)

There are victims of evil all around us throughout the world struggling to understand why. “Why me?” And there are those around them adding fuel to the fire about why God wasn’t there to protect them, or at least deliver them from evil. The counterfeit message is that God is to blame for man’s suffering. This is the different message that deliberately twists and alters the truth concerning Christ. Jesus suffered and died so that in the end you and I would experience the collective goodness and joy that is found in relationship with Him.

Afterward Jesus found him in the Temple and told him, “Now you are well; so stop sinning, or something even worse may happen to you.” John 5:14 (NLT)

Even worse is the message that makes God out to be some kind of adversarial force against the sensibilities of reason. Don’t do that or God’s going to punish you. Jesus had just healed a man that had been paralyzed for almost forty years. Did God afflict the man to be miserable most of his life just to heal him some thirty-eight years later so Jesus could get some attention? The man was struck down by the active presence of evil in the world. God is not the enemy. Evil is the enemy and when Jesus healed the man evil was defeated. When Jesus saw him again later on adding to the collective strength of the enemy, he warned the man to stop giving evil even more power or next time he’ll be hit even harder than paralysis; something that will hit him so hard so as to cost him his life, perhaps for all of eternity.

Jesus said, “The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.” John 10:10 (NLT)

It is in the suffering that I need Jesus. But so long as I foolishly buy into the lies of twisted “truth”, I will lose out on the gift of new life standing at the door of my heart knocking, wanting to come in and fellowship with me. When I come to appreciate who Jesus is, my friend and advocate, wanting to live with me from within me, even while I am in the jaws of evil, He is offering me comfort and strength; sufficient grace when I am weak.

Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:8-10 (NLT)

The truth is that God loves you and will never forsake you. Let the teeth of this truth sink in.

I want to encourage you to dwell in this truth for a while and marinate in it, allowing it to resonate from within. Do not turn from God, blaming Him for the calamity and suffering in your life. Blame the collective evil in the world and hate evil. For me, I must do more to abstain from contributing into evil if I claim to hate it and its effect on me and on all those that I love.

Turn to Jesus. Answer the door. Invite Him to come in and stay with you for awhile. Do not be fooled into believing that Jesus is allowing bad things to happen to you and allow Him to express His love to you. He loves you so much. Jesus said to pray for deliverance from evil. Pray that. In praying that, we are praying not only for deliverance from evil consequences but we are praying for deliverance from contributing into the collective evil that seeks to destroy lives. Pray to hate and despise evil of any sort.

Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Romans 12:9 (NIV)

It is within each one of us to avoid and distance ourselves from that which we hate. That is the contradiction and hypocrisy of hating what evil has its hand in while I continue having a hand in the mission of evil against me (and you) and those I love. Sincere love for myself (and you) and those I claim to love should mean that I hate evil enough to be committed—and surrendered—to all that is good for me and all who are affected by me.

Let me leave you with some truth from the Bible since it’s what this is all about.

Jesus replied, “The most important commandment is this… The Lord our God is the one and only Lord. And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind, and all your strength.’ The second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ No other commandment is greater than these.” Mark 12:29-31 (NLT)

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7 (NLT)

Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. 1 Peter 5:7 (NLT)

Companion articles:
The Problem of Pain… a Study of the Father’s Discipline
Doubt in the Madness of the Perfect Storm

About Steven Gledhill

My name is Steven Gledhill, a certified substance use disorder (SUD) professional of more than two decades. I am narried with three sons and two grandsons. I recognize that every person who's ever lived is subject to the human condition, valuing self and the need for control above all else. Therefore, all are inclined to be self-centered with the preoccupation to be absolutely satisfied and comfortable. The prerequisite for satisfying comfort is the control that all seek and that none attain. Furthermore, all of us are vulnerable to temptation and challenged desperately to resist it. We have all given ourselves over to human desire and have fallen to temptation and engaged in behavior that has potential for harm and so we all have experienced harm. We have all have experienced the pain and discomfort associated with unfavorable outcomes from self-centered behavior to one degree or another. It is only in relationship with God through Jesus Christ that anyone and everyone has the opportunity for restoration from the ills of self-centered thinking and behavior. Faith in the living God when realized through experience, appeals most to our intellectual sensibilities. Transformed by a renewed mind, it is reasonable to anticipate that God is involved with us becuase of his love for us. Relationship with God is reasonable and is as real as anything you have ever seen, heard, touched, smelled, and tasted. The Bible says, "Taste and see that the Lord is good. (The word, Lord, speak's to God's sovereignty; something even Albert Einstein believed about God.)
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2 Responses to Where is God when Evil Storms into My Life?

  1. Jeff says:

    I read your article. Nice presentation on the subject of evil. Reading your blog made me think of something. Have you read the book, “The Harbinger” by Jonathan Cahn yet? I highly recommend it.

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